Thought I'd slip in a short post since I still have some time in the office.

This post is gonna be all 'bout baby woes and blues, triggered by Joyee, who asked me yet again, so when is Project B?



Since we've gotten married, we've been plagued by friends and relatives asking the same question:

"WHEN YOU ALL GONNA MAKE BABY HAR?"

Friends greet me with: "When are you guys gonna have a baby? Not young liao, no good you know?" instead of: "Hello, how you doing?" when they call me up. Every new year, well-meaning relatives ask what exactly are we waiting for. Well, we dun really know.

In fact, we've never really talked about it seriously. My husband is not the type of guy that you can get a straight answer from. If he is not comfortable with the topic, he'll just give me roundabout answers which will drive me up the wall.

I'm so not looking forward to losing my figure and my life to a tiny squalling being made with our DNA. My internal clock has not started ticking and my maternal nesting instincts have not kicked in. I dun go ga-ga everytime I see a cute toddler, and I dun rush to hold other people's babies at gatherings.

I know it's a natural progression and NO, before you all jump to the conclusion that we are not gonna' have kids, WE WILL, erm... just not NOW...


From little conversations and my understanding of him, he wants children. But I think he still wants some time to get used to the idea of being a father.
NOTE: the plural instead of singular.

We are happy and contented with our current family semantics, and we are in no hurry to tip the balance or make life-changing decisions. Of course, it would be good to plan things, but if everything goes according to plan, then it wouldn't be called LIFE, would it?

So when will Project B start? I honestly have no idea. I have never been resistant to the idea of being pregnant, but I'm not exactly in a rush either. So to risk sounding cliche, let's just let nature take it's course.

It has been a whirlwind weekend, and I really din have time to sit down to collect my thoughts into a decent post.

You can forget about pics as well, I'm shuddering just thinking about the amount of pics I have to go through cos, haha! I've finally collected my wedding pics!

Clementi Bright is the best can? They gave me ALL my photos, and I mean ALL. Like more than 200pcs in the soft copies and in the printed raw copies!!! Okie, I know I sound like some idiot, but I still can't get over it. That they were so generous to give me all my pics. including my fave candid one of Ace:

See his face, so cute right?

Met up with Jules, Timothy and his super cute gf Shuting for dinner on Friday. We met up at Anchorpoint cos' Jules had gone to Queensway earlier to get her sunnies to protect her newly-Lasiked eyes. We shopped around Anchorpoint for awhile, AND... my wish has been granted! Cotton On is finally opening an outlet store in the west in Anchorpoint! They took over the space opposite Charles & Keith from Iora, which I think din do very well. Hahaha, I'm so excited... although am a little disappointed that they are not officially open yet. We had dinner in Ikea and did a little shopping. I re-stocked Ace's toys cos' the soft toys from Ikea are the only ones he doesn't rip apart. Am still trying to figure out why.

Accompanied Jules to her post Lasik review the next day at 9.30am in the morning cos' Emperor intended to play soccer the whole day. We spent a tai-tai day in town, had brekkie at Ding Tai Fung and lounged around at IndoChine. Then we went to Forever 21 to check out the sizing and material of the clothes cos' we had this grand plan for a spree from the online store as the prices were cheaper.

Went over to Tangs where we met up with HRH Joelle and then popped down to Far East Plaza. Wilfully bought another 2 pairs of shoes that I couldn't resist and din need, and also bought a top which I really liked.

Then we headed home to rest before meeting Kelvin and Chuan Ngee for dinner and a K-session at Clementi Partyworld. Jules almost din go for K cos' her eyes were troubling her, but we managed to convince her to go along and tortured her ears with our outrageous warbles. I believe Kelvin enjoyed himself very much cos' he couldn't stop singing, haha!

Being fans of 超级星光大道, we realised most of the songs we sang were mostly by the talents discovered from the show. I attempted to sing the theme song from 敗犬女王, and failed miserably again cos' I've got no sense of rhythm... 我不入地狱, 谁入地狱?

The highlight of my weekend:

Timothy: "Do you want a chicken wing? Eat lar, it's very nice you know? Dun worry lar, you are not fat, eat lar, eat lar..."

Me: "No, I will not eat the chicken wing cos' I'm watching my weight to make myself more proportionate than I already am. I want to lose weight so that I can be more perfect, hahahaha!!!"

Timothy: "WAH LAU...!"

Tomorrow is a very special day. 24 years ago on 25th June, a little boy was bestowed on our family. My brother, 5 years my junior, Marcus.

It's your birthday again, and I wanna dedicate this post for a trip down memory lane of your younger days.

From the moment you came into this world, you were what we called a "happy" baby. With your striking resemblance to Mum and your big sparkling eyes, you made strangers stop in their tracks to comment on how cute and adorable you were. We were so proud of you... especially when Mum enrolled you in a baby contest and you came in 3rd place. I dun remember much of that day, only that we spent the whole day at the community centre, and I rubbed the insides of my thighs raw bcos' I spent the whole day on the slide in the playground.



I was quite the monster elder sister, terrorizing you into playing with Barbie dolls, sabotaging you all the time, and making fun of your clumsiness. But never doubt for a moment that I love you. Being in this family, you must know that we are genetically impaired to show affection and encouragement with nice words. The more we care about you, the more we scold you. I think it's called tough love.



I was jealous of you cos' Mum doted on you. Being the elder sibling, I was always expected to take care of you and look out for you. It was tiresome, cos' before you came along, it was all about me and myself. From being the princess, I became second priority cos' now YOU were the baby of the family.



When you turned ten and I fifteen, Mum left us for good. It was a difficult time, and I wanna say: I'M SORRY. For my thoughtlessness and selfishness, and for all the times when I should have been there for you, but was not. I was immature and only focused on my own pain, without realizing that you were feeling even more alone. I only knew how to direct my angst towards you and vent my frustrations on you. It must have been difficult for you, growing up without a mother, a father or a sister.



Then came the onset of puberty. You morphed into a 1.89m tall, gangly "THING". I was still wrapped up in my own needs and wants and never knew how to talk to you. Sure, we hung out at home together, but I was painfully unaware that you needed a role model and some direction in your life. I ask myself now: What if I had been more mature and handled the situation differently?



With the completion of National Service, you matured and suddenly, we could click again. I am so proud of your achievements every single day. I am impressed by how you picked yourself up and performed so well at the interviews in order to join your current company. Through the years, you have managed to grow up by yourself, and accomplish so much by yourself.

I only hope for you to enjoy life every single day and never waste a moment with regrets or thinking about things you cannot change. May God keep you safe all the time and give you the tenacity to meet life's challenges head on and emerge victorious.

You've come a long way, bro... HAPPY 24TH and I'm sure by now you must be having a blast at Zouk!

Woke up to deafening claps of thunder and pouring rain. When I checked the clock, it was already 7.40am, and I had to get to office by 8.30am!

If you have read my previous post, it may begin to dawn on you, erm, why am I always oversleeping? Well, I oversleep bcos' I sleep late. I sleep late bcos' I usually eat late dinners. I usually eat late dinners bcos' my husband works late. My husband works late bcos' he goes to work late. ANYWAY, you get the idea lar. We just belong to the "5 more mins" gang, and it's always so difficult to drag myself out of bed, away from the warm, safe cocoon of my husband and the comforter.

I predictably got ready by 8.05am, and said my customary goodbye to Ace before leaving the home, armed with my umbrella. Was in a taxi before 8.10am. "Swee, confirm can get to work on time!"

BUT, I got caught in a traffic jam. Being a driver-in-progress (ahem, I'm currently taking lessons and my test date is 28 August 2009), I had decided to no longer be a passive passenger and vegetate at the back seat whenever I'm in a car. Now, I take the opportunity to watch and learn, so that I can be a better and more responsible driver.

Judging from the major holdup, I thought it would be really serious, like maybe a pile-up involving many vehicles, but nearing the end of traffic jam, there was only one ambulance, one injured motorist, fallen motorcycle, one driver, one car which I presumed had run into the motorcycle, all in the first lane. The policeman was standing at the side of the road, motioning to vehicles to move along, so as not to cause a traffic jam.

WHAT IS IT WITH SINGAPOREANS? WHAT WILL IT TAKE FOR YOU PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND THERE IS NOTHING TO SEE? IF YOU WERE THE INJURED PERSON, OR THE DRIVER, WOULD YOU WANT PEOPLE SLOWING DOWN THEIR VEHICLES JUST TO GAWK AT YOU AND POINT FINGERS LIKE YOU WERE SOME RARE EXHIBIT IN THE ZOO?

I just dun get it. All these traffic jams are created by this nation's kaypoh personality and love for gossip. I can just imagine Chan Ah Beng going into the office and telling his colleague:

"Wah lan eh, just now ECP major jam ah. Motor kena buang by car, I think that fella jia lat. Ambulance somemore leh, wah, heng not me lor. Si bey suay ah. Eh, I got take down the car plate number, later wan to share money buy 4D or not?"

Can wake up people? You think you will get to benefit from others' misfortune just like that? Honestly, I would really love to know what are you people gawking at? Why are you behaving in such a selfish manner, and ignoring the fact that you are inconveniencing others by driving so slowly? Do you want to be the next statistic in 2009's fatal car accidents? Do your civic duty and act in a more socially responsible manner. There are other drivers, motorists and pedestrians out there, and not everything is about you.

I mean, do you think you are helping things by slowing down your vehicle to cause the major holdup? Or are you a medically trained individual who is able to help the victim? THERE IS ALREADY AN AMBULANCE THERE, FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!

GET A LIFE! STOP LIVING OTHERS'!!!

This is the story of how I got Ace... It's gonna be loooonnnnggg and boring, hahaha... I decided to commemorate Ace cos' I'm afraid once I have my own baby, I'll forget all his escapades and wat a hard time I had initially.

Back in April 2007, Emperor, Jules and I had more or less settled into our then new home with the three Jack Russells. At that time, I was still working shifts in Starhub and every moment spent at home was especially precious. Jules and I caught a Taiwanese pet program which introduced labradors, and from there we learnt that labs come in 3 standard colours, black, yellow and chocolate. Although it has always been my dream to keep a black lab, I was abit turned off when the commentator mentioned that labs are heavy shedders and quite messy, as in "like to make themselves dirty" dogs.

I still remember saying to Jules: "Ewww... uh uh, no way can I live with dat!" Well, life has a way of making you eat your words...



It so happened that Jules ran out of dog food shortly after that, and she made a trip to Pet Lover's Centre at Holland Village. And, it so happened, they sold puppies there too. And it so happened, she went to take a peek out of curiosity. And, she saw the most darling choc lab puppy staring back at her from the window. She came back and told Emperor and me about it, and we rushed back to the shop to see the puppy too, but they had closed for the day.

Undaunted, I went with Lay Neo the next day as I was off from work. I still remember Emperor was on reservist, so he was back in camp. And when I saw the puppy, I fell in love. The sales assistant brought him out for a closer look, and this manipulative puppy just sat there, staring at me with his golden amber eyes with a befuddled expression on his face. How cute can that get huh? Yeah, I'm a sucker, always have been and always will be.

I immediately called Emperor and told him that he had to come see himself. Emperor came later in the evening and was pretty impressed. This puppy was one intelligent rascal. We din buy him straight away though cos' we thought the asking price was too steep, they wanted SGD1900.00 for him. So, we decided to think it over first, and sound things out to see if we were really prepared for this huge bundle of commitment. Emperor thought the puppy would do me good, as he was going away on a business trip to London for 2 weeks. I too, thought it would be a great maturing and nurturing process.

By the next day, we were sure, sure as hell we wanted to buy the puppy, and Jules managed to negotiate the price with the sales assistants down to SGD1780.00. She even went down during lunch to put the deposit for me cos' I was at work and Emperor was in camp. *Touched*

And the deed was done. We had done the unimaginable to others: To house 3 small dogs, 1 large dog, and 3 humans under one roof. Hahaha...

By the time I went to pick him up the next day, I still hadn't thought of a name for him. I still remember the excitement just like it was yesterday. I flew down to Holland in a taxi after work, met Jules, Timothy and Lay Neo there. Bought the basic must-haves like food and water bowls, chew toys, and treats while waiting for the shop to get him ready for us to take him home. And finally, we took my baby home.

My poor puppy came home with me, sick and bewildered. Sick cos' he had kennel cough, which is infectious and by the way, he sounds exactly like a human when he coughs! Irresponsible pet shop should not have let me collect him, but that's besides the point and water under the bridge liao.



I set up the enclosure for my baby in the kitchen cos' due to the tons of research I had done on the internet, I felt it would be best to allow him access to areas of the house slowly. Little did I know, this would be the beginning of all my horrors... Hah! I'll get to that in another post, to be continued... tatas!

Okie, I know I said I wud update on my loots, but just din have the mood and the time to blog anything over the weekend. :)

Had a major scare last night, when I went into my blog to check for messages, my blog skin images couldn't load. Frantically I asked Emperor if he knew how to repair this... and he was like: "You must have changed something lor", and I went "I din, I din, I swear I din!"

After further investigation, we realized there was something wrong with Photobucket, hence the image on my blog skin couldn't load. i.e., the pic the author used was stored in Photobucket. Stupidly, I also din think of downloading the pics to my own web album either...*kua kua*

Luckily, the pic was still available on www.blogskins.com and Emperor single-handedly rectified everything for me while I watched the latest episode of 超级星光大道. I know lar, I'm quite useless, keke...

So all's well that ends well, and my blog skin is here to stay... Teething problems, I'd call it.

Oh my god, I'm so excited now. Counting down the mins till 5.30pm so that I can dash off to Southaven at Chevron House.

WHY? They are having a major moving out SALE! Wah lau, just the mention of the word makes my heart quicken and I start to hyperventilate. *Deep breaths*

I was just mentioning to Jules to check out if Southaven was having a sale cos' her office is in Raffles Place, and it's easier for her to pop by. I bought this Chanel inspired black bag at SGD40 bucks sometime back, and bcos I use it everyday, I was afraid it would not withstand the test of time and wanted to buy the exact same one to keep lar, just in case y'know? Yar lar, I very kiasu.

AND guess wat? My wish was granted! She happened to walk past today on her way to her client's place and YES! They are on SALE!

Hahahah, I'm gonna go after work and update on my loots later! Yippee, so happeee!!

Mark this date, cos' today is the most KNN WTF day I've had since, erm..., since, aiya, can't remember.

Woke up at 7.55am, and got ready for work in a mad dash, all the time muttering FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, I'm gonna' be fuckin' late!!!

Ace & Emperor continued to snooze peacefully in the background.

Rushed downstairs to try to flag a cab, usually not difficult cos' my place is surrounded by offices and schools. But dun forget, today is my KNN WTF day, so yup, you got it! I waited like more than 5 mins and this bitch with no fashion sense watsoever, cut lim peh's QUEUE!

Ok, I know there is only an imaginary queue so to speak cos' there's no taxi stand but KNN, dun tell me she so fucking blind she can't see me waving my arm up and down to flag passing taxis down in vain??

First of all, the blind bitch was dressed in this disgusting dark brown flower patterned sheath dress, hmm, got white & yellow colour also ALL OVER, then this boring cereal coloured cardigan, with black patent & gold designed peep toes, carrying an LV Monogram Speedy. Si bey wrong right?

She came out behind me, purposely crossed the road, and continued to walk further up where she thought she would be invisible to me cos' she was trying to cut my QUEUE! Dun be stupid lor, confirm can see wan wat, cos' got no obstruction.

But never mind, although she got the 1st cab that came along, an empty cab followed behind and I only got into my taxi like 5 secs later than her.

Got to office, and started work. KNN, in the middle of nowhere, my computer kena fucking virus!!! A bloody motherfucking worm! Replicating my symantec window non-stop till half my LCD screen covered in them. KNN right?

Wasted my whole morning and couldn't do anything cos' had to wait for my super inefficient IT people to swop my computer to a new set for me. BAH!!!

Had a lousy lunch cos' I was duped by the picture in the menu and ordered something new to try. Bloody hell, on the pic look like fried rice with belacan, but when it came, it's just normal yangzhou fried rice lor. & not cheap OK! Cost me $6.90!!!

On a lighter note, managed to buy something that I always wanted at a reasonable price today, so my mood picked up after lunch.

Denim rompers
Original Price: SGD36
Sale Price: SGD26

Leaving the office in like 15mins, and praying that my KNN WTF day has come to an end.

And here's a totally unrelated video, keke, I just like Ethan Ruan:

In that frame of mind now where I can feel my mood spiralling downwards and everything to me is just SIAN. SI BEY SIAN.

Wish I din have to work, then I can stay home with Ace everyday to do nothing.
Wish I din have to work, then I can learn driving during off-peak hours, CHEAPER
Wish I din have to work, then I can sleep till noon everday.
Wish I din have to work, then I wun be so SIAN.

1st of all, my job is really very boring wan okie?
I'm a cust svc advisor for a MNC publishing company. Basically I only have to reply emails, all 48 of them everyday and that's it. Nothing else. Like 98% of the customers I reply to are overseas, so it's like super surreal type of environment.

No conversations in the office either, cos' everyone's trying to hit their daily target. Sometimes, it feels like I'm working in a morgue. Well, the grass is always greener on the other side, to some people, my working environment may feel like heaven.

Or maybe people just dun like my face, so they dun wanna talk to me. Dunno lar, I think I'm quite a friendly, normal person. Okie, I admit I do have my quirks and peeves, but that's wat makes me different, RIGHT?

But I've had people tell me, their 1st impression of me is that I'm very 'TAO', like I think I'm too good to talk to them liddat. Maybe it's my attitude, I seriously can't tolerate nonsense and stupidity. & if I try to act friendly, then it comes off very fake.

Which is why till this day, I only keep in touch regularly with 2 girlfrens. So miserable right? It baffles me how I ended up being in a customer service profession, when I seem to offend the whole world at times, and how little friends I have. Bah! So it's pretty shitty when one BFF is in Bali with her dearie, while the other one has gone MIA.

Social life = Officially NIL

Labels: antisocial

It's been two weeks or more since I last met Lay Neo, wonder how is she? Starting to miss our Friday routine of dinner and chillin' out talkin' bout nothin' in particular. Hmmm, but she seems preoccupied.

Anyway, I've gotta go visit my mum-in-law. Have not been to visit her the past two day cos' I had driving lessons. {sigh} Hope she can be discharged soon, hospitals are the most depressing place on earth, I think I was quite mad to contemplate a permanent job there.

On a lighter note, wuahaha... my driving instructor says that my driving skills are picking up on par and he's given me the go-ahead to book my practical test. Steady bo? Finish 4 lessons nia so far ya' noe?

And... best of all, my wedding pics design and layout is ready for my viewing!!! Made the appt for Sunday 3pm, can't wait... to get my hands on the soft copies, yippee!

My weekend will be super packed, I still have to make a trip to Starhub CSC to return my additional set top box, as well as make changes to my subscription plan for cable tv.

This post is titled feelin' blue, cos' I am blue. Dun feel loved by Emperor cos' he seems to be giving me attitude everytime he talks to me, mebbe I'm sensitive and should be more understanding since his mum is so sick. {sigh} But it still doesn't warrant him treating me like I'm his enemy wor.

Also, feeling ignored by the whole world, everything seems to be in limbo, and seems like nothin's gonna happen. I confess I dun deal very well with not having any plans or things to do, but when there's too many, I lose it cos' I will get stressed too.

{Fuck it, juz leave me be}

Mad about this song now:

Labels: blue

5:15 PM

Watched some Taiwanese variety program hosted by Li Jing last Wednesday, and came across this Taiwanese guy who spoofed Vitas's Opera 2.

I've posted the original and the spoof for comparison, check it out, it's really quite hilarious.

ORIGINAL


SPOOF

Shit lor... I'm like falling sick, can feel the beginnings of a fever and sore throat. Damn!

Is it the H1N1 virus? Nene, think wun be so zhun wan lar. I've been to NUH the past two days to visit my mum-in-law since she was warded, and the hospital's so-called measures are damn cock lar. All you are required to do is register your name and write the ward you are visiting. Never even bother to take temperature sia, liddat I write fake wan also ne'er mind right?

One patient is only allowed 2 visitors at a time. They posted some part-timers outside the wards, and I think those kids are already doing their best, but I still saw some patients with up to 5 family members beside their bed. Wat to do? People never acknowledge the severity of the situation till it happens to someone close to them or themselves. Then they will start pointing fingers to push the blame to someone else.

I mean, wat happened to social responsiblity and civic-mindedness? This is like one of my pet peeves staying in Singapore with other Singaporeans. There are really black sheep among us who constantly show the tak glam side of themselves and bring disgrace to us.

Well, back to meself awright? I'm like guzzling Manuka honey and praying I dun fall sick, cos' I can't afford to! I usually try to take care of myself well bcos I've got these medical issues which have been getting worse since the past year.

First off, I have this constipation/diarrhoea problem. I get constipated for days at a time and then I will have to take medicine to make me go. Now usually these medicines contain some mild laxative effect, makes sense rite, if not how to go? So if I start going, I'll end up with diarrhoea. Si bey cham right, I'm quite worried that I'll end up with colon cancer one day.

Secondly, it's my stupid nose. I've always been the "sensitive" type of person, like if I sit on grass, I'll break out in rashes. If I consume too much alcohol, I will also break out in rashes. If I do spring cleaning, I'll start sneezing and my nose runs continuously. I think you get the picture right? So recently, it's gotten pretty bad, I started sneezing out bloody mucous all the time, and I couldn't sleep well at night cos' of my nasal fluids back-flowing. Emperor bought me an air purifier for our bedroom and my coughing fits in the middle of the night abated for a while. But then they started again and the doctor had to put me on steroid nasal drips and an inhaler cos' I was developing asthma, like my coughs were the wheezing type.

Let's hope the Manuka honey is enough for now, otherwise I'll have to pop some pills to sleep tonight. cannot rest somemore leh, got driving lessons tonight.

In case you din noe, Manuka honey is from bees who feed on the flowers of the Manuka bush, also known as the "Tea Tree" to produce a honey that has anti-bacterial properties.

11:02 AM

Wah lau, isn't massage supposed to be relaxing?

After slogging over my blog, decided to join Jules and Joelle for Thai massage session in the afternoon yesterday but now I regret my decision extremely.

My shoulders and back feel like someone beat me mercilessly for like 2 hours lor!!! Really in pain man. Although the tightness is gone, but the pain is really unbearable. Had to sleep with medicated plaster somemore, si bey cham...

We headed off to Harbourfront after that to buy my father-in-law's prezzie, PERFUME! Jules managed to get the discount card from one of her colleagues for a perfume store located at the 1st floor and boy, we had fun sniffing all the different scents cos' Joelle wanted to buy for her busband and Jules wanted to get something new for herself as well.

Cool fact: The salesgirl offered to let us smell coffee beans to clear our noses cos' all the perfumes smelt the same after a while and whaddya noe, it works! So amazing right?

I bought my fave perfume, Dunhill Desire for ladies at less than 40 bucks, but to my disappointment, the salesgirl informed us that this scent has been discontinued. I only managed to grab the last bottle...

We went past Joop! at Vivocity and they were having a 40% storewide sale, GSS I guess. I bought a pair of pedal pushers which Joyee has that I admired, she bought like two colours of the same pair. I guess this is where I picked up my bad habit from.

Like if I find something I like and I look good in it, I will tend to get it in different colours. I noe, I noe, very boring right?

I also bought a white shirt which I felt was something different, and it was really cheap, $19.90 only leh!

Then we headed off to the Yard, by the time we finally had dinner, it was like 10PM!!! We were all starving already lor... Stayed there till almost 1am, by the time we left, the 3 of us already started feeling sore...

why do we pay good money in exchange for 1.5 hours of bliss but days of pain after?

10:02 PM

Random pic of myself with hair extensions...

Well, it looks like I'll never be able to cut and paste, can only drag and drop, but should be good enough in the meantime.

Holding my breath to see how this post turns out... if it's chio, then I can finally go to bed, nitez...

Yo, yo... check it out...