Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I can affirm my husband loves me, hehehe...
& I am thankful for the fact that he tries his best to be patient and to understand. (although most times he simply thinks I am throwing another of my tantrums)
But this only serves as an affirmation of his love for me because I know just how difficult it is to not be on the same page with someone, yet to try to see their point in order to be supportive.
Marriage life has it's up and downs, all I can say is I must learn to keep the faith. Yet, I'm a creature of habit who always needs to be in control, thus I will usually try to predict end results based on past track records as references.
I must learn to let go of the past, to stop looking at him through coloured glasses, yet at the same time, it's so hard to do that, cos' I'm so afraid to get hurt that I dun wanna be vulnerable.
*Sigh* I thought life was supposed to get easier once I became older since I'm supposed to be wiser, but though I'm hitting 30 in less than 6 months, I'm still beset by troubles and woes of pubescent teens. Looks like I'm far from maturity in the state of mind.
10:30 AM