I'm so sleepy...

Have been waking up earlier these 2 days, cos' Emperor has driving lessons in the morning so I have to feed Ace and clear his pee tray before I leave for work.

Never realised how dependent I was on that extra 30 to 45 minutes of sleep till today. Practically falling asleep at my desk now, and have not been productive at all for the whole morning. So not looking forward to driving lessons this evening.

I just wanna lie down on my bed and concuss till Saturday. Hah! If only I could, today's only Thursday...

Feels like I'm in prison right, week after week counting down the days till Saturdays and Sundays. I really dunno what is wrong with me... I've got no passion for my job at all, and if you ask me what would I really wanna do, I'd tell you, I dun wanna go to work at all.

But if I dun work, how am I gonna pay my bills? How am I gonna pay for my CPF housing instalments? How am I gonna sustain my shopping habits and my love for pampering myself? Maybe that's the whole problem, I feel chained to my job. It's not something I wanna do, but I have to do it. It's really such a pain in the ass sometimes. Looks like the only way to get a long paid leave is to get pregnant, hahaha... Get extra days of child care leave in a year too.

Came across this as I was googling, it really tickled me:




Excuse my senseless ramblings, I'm just really sleep-deprived.

Blame cable TV, blame my itchy arse for watching Goal! 2 on HBO till 12.45am. *Wah lau, damn stupid show can, no ending wan! Waste of my time* Blame my old age, blame my retarded metabolism rate for not giving me enough energy.

Gone are the days when I could go to work without feeling worse for wear after a whole night of partying or TV marathons. True, I may look younger than my actual age, but my body feels more like it belongs to that of a 40 year old.

It's so ironic that I look forward to Fridays and the weekends, but when it's really Friday, I just feel so drained by the whole week that I just feel like vegetating on the couch at home. How man? If I'm already feeling so drained without a baby, how am I gonna cope or handle having one?